Hey guys!
I'm 32 years old and newly engaged. I'm getting married April 25,2009 in Puerto Rico which is where my fiance is from. It's suppose to be the most exciting time of my life, but Hydros/Soma/carisoprodol have zapped all feelings out of my being. I'm just pretty much numb. Going through the motions. This has been going on for about two years when I was first introduced to these meds. -Legally by my doctor! Now I find that I can not get enough. I'm ALWAYS worried I won't have enough. Last week was my "wake up" call. I went to one of my doctors and there it was printed, all the meds from diff docs I've been receiving. That's actually what brought me to this site. I was scared. But I was still in denial telling half the story & not letting you guys know that in fact I was seeing multiple doctors for the same meds. I'm sorry I was not truthful. I was not ready.
After reading through these posts day and night I have realized that in fact I do have a problem, and I want to stop. I want my life back! I want to work again! (Because of my addiction I have not been to work in 2-3 months. I can't be on meds & work! I chose meds!)
I want to be excited when I wake up in the morning! I want to exercise & run everyday like I use to! I am tired of waking up and taking my meds and just wasting my days a way! I want to care about what I look like! Take pride in myself like I use to!
I ordered from loveleafgarden in hopes this will help me get through the tough w/d. I received my package yesterday. It does not look like much. Maybe I ordered wrong? I have: 1)Kratom -Ultra Enhanced Indo and the sample 2) Theobroma cacao: Raw Cacao 25x Extract
Where do I start?

Thank you for listening. I finally broke down and told my fiance what was going on. He knew something was wrong but he didn't know it was the meds. He is very supportive and will do anything he can to help me. When I told him that I read about Kratom it was pretty much a no brainer, we ordered immediately! And this is where I am today....

scaredsilly,
First of all, I see so many positives here. You are no longer in denial, your fiance is supportive, your desire to have your life back & you have plenty of time.... April 25, 2009 is a long way away!

As far as the Kratom, from what I've read, don't take any hydro when you use it & start with a small amount ( maybe a tsp) & see how it affects you. I have read a lot of success stories with Kratom use. Note: I do stand to be corrected on the Kratom use as I know some people will come foreword & give you some more helpful advice.

You sound like a (strong-willed-person) to me & I firmly believe you are going to overcome this habbit.

I think that "wake up" call may have been a blessing in disguise! Oh, before long you will have to change that board name!

Please keep us posted on your progress,

MrJR

Stevo


What is dlpa? where do you get it?

I agree with NBG. I got off hydro's last Nov. using Kratom. I took about 1/4-1/2 tsp. every four hours. It was all I needed but that varies with each individual. After a week and a half I was done!

I did a lot of research before I started and this is what the bottom line was: Kratom is a leaf that grows on trees in Asia? and the field workers who chew on it for years get addicted. Everyone that I know personally who has used Kratom for a month or less did not get addicted. Suboxone, on the other hand is a very very potent drug and very addictive. The reason it helps with withdrawals is because it is so much stronger than what you are taking now. From what you wrote, especially that you aren't even keeping your dr. appt. the last thing you want is a drug that's even stronger than the hydro you were taking.

Just try the kratom that you have and use it when you feel the first sign of w/d's. Also, a hot bath instantly erases the aches and will help so much. There is always time to try a different path if this doesn't work. I personally believe that it takes a long time of constant use to get physically dependent on kratom. Good luck!

Stevo,
That link is bad, can you try again?

Scaredsilly~

Congrats on making your life, your own again.

I wish I had a silver bullet for you! There are many ppl here that can help you, and there are also some threads of ppl going through the samething as you...maybe you can join in for support.

I also wanted to ask you about the appt that had the list with all the docs and meds. Did you doctor suspect that you were "Doc shopping?" Just curious how he came to have a list like that.

Wishing you many many med-free days ahead, and a happy and healthy life