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#913007 - 07/30/09 03:43 PM
Methadone withdrawl
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Registered: 08/15/08
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I just wanted to share my experience here about my addiction to methadone/benzos.
Five years ago I started a low dose of methadone for fibro pain. After about a year I was hooked and taking way more than was prescibed. AS I am a healthcare worker and worked in the Dr.s office who prescibed my meds I actually stole a script pad and started writing dupicate scripts. My doc would write the legit one and I would copy it and take it to another pharmacy. I figured that the chances were only one pharmacy would call and verify and that I wouldn't get caught.
Eventually I lost everything...I lost my job because I was falling asleep at work, my apartment, I slept over 16 hours per day and generally lost touch with all my friends and relatives. I vowed that when I finally got caught I would go to rehab, and of course I eventually did get caught. Thankfully they did not prosecute, but since I had medicaid I could not get an inpatient detox/treatment.
I went cold turkey off a 100mg per day methadone habit along with 40mgs of valium. I can't describe the hell I went thru. No ER would treat me, and no treatment center would take me. They said that cold turkey off that much methadone was impossible and that it would kill me.
well, It didn't kill me but at the time I wished it would have. I didn't sleep for 10 days, didn't eat for 15 and lost 30lbs in 2 weeks. I finally got into the county detox center where it was like jail...homeless drunks, crackheads, etc. I got assaulted by a woman demanding sexual favors...it was hell and I received practically no medical care. I had seizures, my BP was running into stroke level...I was sick literally for 3 months straight. I had diarhhea for 9 months.
But I got thru it. I survived and have been methadone free for 2yrs. I still feel like [censored] most days and still have cravings.
Ok, thats it. I just wanted to share my experience and wanted to see if anyone else has gone thru something similar.
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#913130 - 07/31/09 12:36 AM
Re: Methadone withdrawal
[Re: martind]
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Registered: 08/15/08
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yes I considered a methadone clinic, but did not want to have to taper for the year+ they told me it would take. Stupid, if I had known what hell I was going to face I would have done it. I didn't want to be tied down to going to pick up my daily methadone dose either. With a healthcare job its kind of impossible to stick to the clinics stringent schedule. And yes, I would love to advocate for prescription drug addicts who are denied treatment. A 30 day outpatient treatment program is great, but with that level of dependance we really need inpatient medical detox. Unfortunetly unless you have good insurance, its next to impossible unless you can fork over 10grand for rapid detox. I have to say Im rather proud of the fact that the medical "experts" said going cold turkey off methadone couldn't be done....But I DID IT! I feel if I can do that, I can do anything. and yes, I am very careful about narcotics now. It takes a maximum effort of self control to only take what was prescribed. I've had 4 bouts of kidney stones, and pneumonia with pleurisy and was prescribed narcotics for each occasion. Im proud to say I took them only when necessary and didn't try to refill to just get high. But yes, it is shameful the way the medical profession treats addicts who want to get help. The general attitude is "TS...they got themselves addicted..let them suffer thru it." A shame, and perhaps thats why so many ex-addicts become drug counselors themselves.
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#924274 - 09/01/09 12:36 AM
Re: Methadone withdrawl
[Re: sassysayra]
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Registered: 06/08/05
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I just wanted to share my experience here about my addiction to methadone/benzos.
Five years ago I started a low dose of methadone for fibro pain. After about a year I was hooked and taking way more than was prescibed. AS I am a healthcare worker and worked in the Dr.s office who prescibed my meds I actually stole a script pad and started writing dupicate scripts. My doc would write the legit one and I would copy it and take it to another pharmacy. I figured that the chances were only one pharmacy would call and verify and that I wouldn't get caught.
Eventually I lost everything...I lost my job because I was falling asleep at work, my apartment, I slept over 16 hours per day and generally lost touch with all my friends and relatives. I vowed that when I finally got caught I would go to rehab, and of course I eventually did get caught. Thankfully they did not prosecute, but since I had medicaid I could not get an inpatient detox/treatment.
I went cold turkey off a 100mg per day methadone habit along with 40mgs of valium. I can't describe the hell I went thru. No ER would treat me, and no treatment center would take me. They said that cold turkey off that much methadone was impossible and that it would kill me.
well, It didn't kill me but at the time I wished it would have. I didn't sleep for 10 days, didn't eat for 15 and lost 30lbs in 2 weeks. I finally got into the county detox center where it was like jail...homeless drunks, crackheads, etc. I got assaulted by a woman demanding sexual favors...it was hell and I received practically no medical care. I had seizures, my BP was running into stroke level...I was sick literally for 3 months straight. I had diarhhea for 9 months.
But I got thru it. I survived and have been methadone free for 2yrs. I still feel like [censored] most days and still have cravings.
Ok, thats it. I just wanted to share my experience and wanted to see if anyone else has gone thru something similar. Methadone clinics around me 100mg a day is pretty much what everyone is on free on charge.
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#924323 - 09/01/09 05:35 AM
Re: Methadone withdrawl
[Re: sassysayra]
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Registered: 08/29/09
Posts: 148
Loc: Mn
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I just wanted to share my experience here about my addiction to methadone/benzos.
Five years ago I started a low dose of methadone for fibro pain. After about a year I was hooked and taking way more than was prescibed. AS I am a healthcare worker and worked in the Dr.s office who prescibed my meds I actually stole a script pad and started writing dupicate scripts. My doc would write the legit one and I would copy it and take it to another pharmacy. I figured that the chances were only one pharmacy would call and verify and that I wouldn't get caught.
Eventually I lost everything...I lost my job because I was falling asleep at work, my apartment, I slept over 16 hours per day and generally lost touch with all my friends and relatives. I vowed that when I finally got caught I would go to rehab, and of course I eventually did get caught. Thankfully they did not prosecute, but since I had medicaid I could not get an inpatient detox/treatment.
I went cold turkey off a 100mg per day methadone habit along with 40mgs of valium. I can't describe the hell I went thru. No ER would treat me, and no treatment center would take me. They said that cold turkey off that much methadone was impossible and that it would kill me.
well, It didn't kill me but at the time I wished it would have. I didn't sleep for 10 days, didn't eat for 15 and lost 30lbs in 2 weeks. I finally got into the county detox center where it was like jail...homeless drunks, crackheads, etc. I got assaulted by a woman demanding sexual favors...it was hell and I received practically no medical care. I had seizures, my BP was running into stroke level...I was sick literally for 3 months straight. I had diarhhea for 9 months.
But I got thru it. I survived and have been methadone free for 2yrs. I still feel like [censored] most days and still have cravings.
Ok, thats it. I just wanted to share my experience and wanted to see if anyone else has gone thru something similar. Holy poop! I know exactly where you're coming from. When I finally got off heroin I got to do my w/d in jail (they claimed they thought I'd have run from a detox center). I got to sit--sweating and shaking and shitting myself; in a cell with 17 other people. The only two instances of "care" I got were extra clean undies (but only when I [censored]] myself) and salt in a cup (for when I got in a fist fight and had to shove a tooth I lost back into its socket--still got the tooth tho...). It was one of the most horrifying experiences of my life; but honestly--I was such a stubborn die hard that I'd have never gotten clean without being locked away from dope for those weeks it took me to get over the w/d and the months it took to get over the addiction. I know that right now you've got the equivalent of ptsd---but there is a bright side; nothing you experience in the rest of your life will be as bad as what you've already been through. You survived an experience that would straight up kill most people. In the future you will derive much personal strength from this knowledge, and you'll become a better person as a result. But for now--just do your best to pick up the pieces of your life---that will be a monumental task in and of itself---and will probably take a like time to how long you used(abused). I'm glad to hear your doing better---take pride in it: you put your head in the lions mouth and pulled it back out after he bit--and survived...
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#935755 - 09/27/09 05:30 PM
Re: Methadone withdrawal
[Re: wholf1313]
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Registered: 05/23/07
Posts: 48
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Has anyone tried kratom to help with the withdrawl? Yes. Kratom WILL help with Methadone W/D or other opiates. I know from firsthand experience, I used Kratom to come off oxycodone (OxyContin). You MUST do your research though, because even though I did, I still took Kratom too much for too long and had to go to a doctor to get through Kratom W/Ds. Be careful - an opiate is an opiate is an opiate. Kratom is an opioid, and can be physically addictive as well.
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#935774 - 09/27/09 07:03 PM
Re: Methadone withdrawal
[Re: supermarket]
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Registered: 09/04/06
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#945796 - 10/18/09 03:38 PM
Re: Methadone withdrawal
[Re: vallium]
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Registered: 07/20/05
Posts: 5819
Loc: The Steve Doocy Fan Club
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kratom IS NOT AN OPIATE, IT JUST SWITCHES OFF THE MU RECEPTORS IN THE BRAIN, making your brain think your on opiates. (sorry 4 caps), but as has been said by supermarket,KRATOM IS ADDICTIVE AND CAN CAUSE SOME ODD SIDE EFFECTS LIKE GIVING YOU BLACK SKIN AROUND THE CHEEKS (sorry again ) I must get a new key board. The side effects such as skin discoloration come from prolonged, heavy use. Using Kratom in small doses to allievate the discomfort when coming off opiate addiction has been very useful I've found; of course it can be abused, just as with Tramadol, suboxone, etc., one must make sure that you aren't substituting one crutch for another. I have found that using just enough Kratom to make me feel comfortable, didn't lead to a heavy Kratom addiction, and I was finally able to stop using it altogether with little ill effect.
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