Hey folks.
I'm a newbie -- about two months.
This is all just my experience, I'm no doctor and I'm giving out NO medical advice. I hope I'm not breaking a rule by writing this.
I don't want to put a downer on this
XANAX thread, but I feel a need to share my horrible and life-threatening experiences with XANAX.
One 2 mg Xanax bar is equal to 30 mg of Valium and heavy withdrawal can occur
very quickly if you get addicted to this stuff.

It's not just "regular" benzo withdrawal -- if there is such a thing. It's not just feeling anxious,irrtable or depressed or unable to sleep and having a racing mind or being confused.
It's 20 times worse.
You can die from Xanax withdrawal -- especially if you've been abusing it.
YOU CAN NOT STOP TAKING IT SUDDENLY IF YOU'RE ADDICTED . You can substitue another benzo for it, but look at a conversion chart, and you'll see: 4 mg of Ativan is equal to 2 mg Xanax, and on and on.
I've taken all the benzos - and
Xanax is different from any of them, both in terms of how it affects the mind and how our body reacts when we stop using it.
I've been taking Valium -- often in very high doses -- for 30 years for muscle spasms. I've gone cold turkey on large doses of Valium and it sucked with W/D -- but I never had a seizure.

The first time I ran low on Xanax after being on it for a year or so, I suffered a Gran Mal seizure.

I don't want to come off as a know-it-all, espcially since I"m new to the group.
BUT I DO KNOW ABOUT XANAX A pain doctor had me on 20 mg a day -- that's 10 2mg bars.
Waaaaaaayyyy too much -- for five years. I feel like I was in a coma for five years. Suddenly, when I got off it, it was like I was waking up from a bad dream....
My doc kept me on that much Xanax because they were the only things that relaxed my back muscles and I had horrible spasms.
Still, he knew what horror I was living in with Xanax. I think he wanted to spare me the W/D, and even said so. I tried to wean, but it's impossible, because sooner or later, the amount you're taking isn't going to take away the W/D symtpoms -- and you're stuck.
I actually detoxed myself over a few months from 20 mg a day to 11 mg a day -- still in the overdose range. That was when I realized I couldn't go any lower and not lose my mind.
Sure, I had a REALLY high tolerance, but 10 of those bars a day and I was a walking zombie.
I had short term memory loss. I acted and said things that made no sense. I wasn't violent, but I was abusive and aggressive. I've never seen a video of me on Xanax, but I've read things I've written while on Xanax.
It's like some crazy person got on my computer:
For instance: I wrote this:
The whole point of the this problem is to make sure your nurse doesn't watch too much TV and get all caught up in those soap operas because the food will spill and her eye makeup will smear and you may turn into an alcoholic, and and she may rob the nearest ABC store if she ever got on crack. On and on it went --
making no sense at all .
It was like an idiot wrote it and signed my name.
I don't even remember writing it. Yet I posted that email on ADH -- I was SO embarrassed. I got a lot of "ha-ha you're high" replys, but I don't think it was funny.
Part of the problem was that Xanax has a short-half life.
I can feel the effects of Xanax on my body for about 4 hours. Then it ABRUPTLY ENDS and I become increasingly nervous and fearful -- even to the point of shaking and worrying about things that are stupid, i.e. terrorists outside my window, all kind of irrational thought, pure parinoia.
With Valium and the other Benzos, they just kinda of wear off. No so with Xanax. I was having mini-withdrawal symptoms every four hours because of the short half life.
I read a lot of research about Xanax, and they listed -- correctly -- some of the more stranger w/drawal symptoms:
I suffered em all. ANd the worst thing about it is: IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD, BUT IT FEELS
SO REAL
Fearing you're about to die or have a heart attack; profuse sweating; shaking; high BP; confusion and fright; talking with a lisp; inability to sit still, racing brain, agoraphobia,
BEREAVEMENT -- meaning that you feel like someone close to you has just died.
The list goes on and on.
You also feel like there is no use in describing how you feel because you are unable to explain it properly. And forget about driving.
You'd wreck.
Anyone can say "
Oh well, look at those doses, anybody would be going through hell on that amount. "
True.
But I've talked with others as well who don't take that much. They get the same horrible W/D -- and it last for more than two weeks.
DO NOT STOP TAKING XANAX COLD TURKEY OR WITHOUT SWITCHING TO ANOTHER BENZO.
(They say that for all the benzos, but this is one that should be heeded and treated very seriously. You'll be VERY SORRY.)
Also, unlike Valium and all the rest of the regular benzos, Xanax is different in that it is specifically made to
PREVENT AND TREAT PANIC ATTACKS The others are just anti-anxiety meds.
If you've ever had a panic attack you know there's a HUGE difference between a full-blown panic attack and severe anxiety.
I NEVER had a panic attack in my life until I got on Xanax -- then i was having them sometimes three or four times a day as I struggled to keep my mind in synche with the
drug.
Also, when I started on heavy doses of Xanax -- I found that the others -- Valium in particular -- just didn't do the trick anymore. It wasn't strong enough. I was STUCK with Xanax.
Finally, I consulted an additionologist, who prescribed me Tegertol and some Clonodine and told me to
STOP TAKING XANAX NOW and go on this stuff and only take 40 mg of Valium a day --two in the morning two at night.
He said the Tegertol would keep me out of seizures, and it was also a good "mood stabilizer" and it actually turned what would surley have been a failed attempted to get off Xanax bearable by turning it into just a "really bad Valium-type W/D."
It's those PANIC ATTACKS - which get worse and worse the longer your W/D goes on that make it impossible to stop Xanax without some other medication.
I've not been able to go more than an hour.
Don't try to do it alone. Seek help. Not a treatment center, but just someone who knows about Xanax and how to get off it.
There are tons of stuff on the net,and
if you send me a PM I will be glad to share more experiences and give you more info on how to get off it safely. PLEASE SEND ME A PM IF YOU"RE ALREDY GOING THROUGH THIS. I can help It was tough but I got through it.I simply could no longer live taking Xanax. IT was playing HUGE HEAD GAMES ON ME and I thought I was going insane.
I say to folks: take your Valium, Ativan, Clonopin if you like it, and all the other benzos, because they are very effective for anxiety and muscle relaxation,
BUT STAY CLEAR OF XANAX it will just blow up in your face and make it so you can't get any benefit from the other less powerful benzos.
This is just my opinion.
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